I Hope it Doesn’t Come Back to Bite Me
I turned to Kellie to ask her advice about the whole Russ situation, and she was very helpful. Kellie has been through ups and downs in relationships and based on her experience, gave me great insight. The one thing I need to remember is that this is about me and Russ… no one else. I can ask everyone their personal opinion until I am blue in the face, but I need to follow my heart… and more importantly my intuition!
My birthday party was an eye-opening moment. Here I have my best friend confessing his love for me in front of everyone, and then a mere few seconds later he is hanging all over some blond! That totally sucked, but let’s be honest…we were all expecting it. Trust is a main factor in any relationship, and I have always had that with Russ. But then again we have never been ‘romantical’ before! Considering that I have had my heart crushed before, I was most certainly scared to put myself out there again. I thought to myself, “Who better to trust and take a risk on than my best friend?” I thought that I should at least give him a chance. Maybe Shea was right…he cannot be trusted. But what is flirting, really? He DID tell everyone there that he loved me. Maybe he will just be a flirt his whole life. But can I live with that? Would he ever take it a step further? I guess I am going to just to trust and give love a chance…I hope it doesn’t come back to bite me.
When I got the phone call about being let go from my job, I wasn’t all that surprised. The economy is in a slump these days and having a personal assistant is a luxury. I never saw myself doing that job forever (or very long, anyway) so I was sort of relieved when it happened. Now I can go out and pursue other opportunities and careers that have always tickled my fancy! Yes I need to pay the bills, but I only have to support myself and Z. So this is the time to take risks and try something new. I plan on jumping in head first and seeing if I can swim with the big fish!
I was a little nervous about giving those speeches for Katie King… if you couldn’t tell! I took a public speaking class in college and when I got up in front of those few people, forgot everything I was taught! I started to sway back and forth, my perspiration level was through the roof, and my mind went totally blank. After that I decided to call up Emily and ask her advice, since she is so calm and collected speaking in front of large groups. She helped me out by being brutally honest…she told me my speech was awful and to just talk to them, not speak at them. What do you know? It worked! That’s why Emily does that for a living and not me!!
I tend to really throw myself into any and everything that I am doing. I figure everyone makes mistakes and I am no different. If I mess up, I will just learn from it and try it again. When walking into a new gig I always give it my all and really devote myself to the job at hand. It would have been easy to do the one speech and just give up, but I wanted another crack at it. I knew I could do better. Now… if my love life was easy as giving those speeches I would be in heaven! That makes me think… if I mess up at one speech, realize my mistakes and do better the second time around, then why can’t Russ? Maybe he needs me to look past this first little hiccup… but should I?
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Hadley – you are my favorite Belle because I feel like you’re normal, headstrong, loving and real. I admire your ability to trust and keep a positive attitude. And, frankly, you always look so good! I loved the black winter coat (with the belt) that you were wearing while you and Kellie went for the walk with the dogs (in “Big Decisions” episode) – any chance you’d reveal the brand? I live in Chicago and we need warm coats! Keep smiling.
Colleen
Hadley, I really think you are an awesome girl. About russ: I don’t think it was bad that he flirted with that girl, he wasn’t really flirting he was sort of just being himself and being social. He didn’t touch her breasts or hair or face or butt……and I think it is healthy that he flirts, the two of you would get bored holding each others hands the whole night, and it was a night out. I don’t know how real this show is, but if russ means what he says, he says he loves you and he would give up his bachelor ways for you, so I think you should trust him. You already put yourself in this situation and I think you made the right choice. Good luck honey. He is a good for you WAYYYYY better than your ex that broke up with you who was a total jerk to you.
Hadley, you are a true inspiration to young women around the world. You are intelligent, down to earth , and absolutely gorgeous. I have no doubt in my mind that you will be successful and accomplish a lot in life. Always remember that you have to kiss a few frogs before you find your prince and your right practice makes perfect! Have fun girl, and keeping enjoying life!!!
God Bless,
ps. you have the best style!
Hadley,
I know that Russ cares about you in his own way, but I don’t think his way is what you deserve and as you said a cheetah doesn’t change his spots. You could try and point out his behavior to him, but he is old enough to know what his actions mean and honestly, he really dissappointed me because I wanted it to work. I know you will find someone great, just keep your eyes open, and I hope things continue to go well for you with work. Thanks for being an inspiration and for making me laugh! You’re great!
Hadley, no offence, but Russ looks like a little boy compared to you and I think you are the most stunning of the ‘Belles’ (you have great comedic (??) timing as well!! You would actually be a great ‘Bachelorette’ for ABC. Hey, isn’t SoapNet part of the ABC Family?? In fact, the other night while I was half ironing, half watching The Bachelorette, The Men Tell All (or something like that) they had on ‘Jake’ who is one of the guys who didn’t make it, but was one of the final 4 or 5. He is a commercial airline pilot from Dallas, Texas, has hair color the same as yours, is 31 or 32 I believe and is a really nice guy. He even flew back to tell the Bachelorette, Jillian that one of the guys had a girlfriend and he was there for all the wrong reasons!! How nice is that. Look him up! Unless you are just into brunettes, this may be the guy for you and in that case, invite me to the wedding! I love your show and I really hope they bring it back for more seasons and hope it is on for more than 10 shows next time. You guys are much more entertaining than the ‘Housewives’! I hope you got your job; but you should never ‘unbeatutify’ yourself down like you did. You are stunning and you should always let that stand out. Good luck to you and all the Belles. Susan in Long Island, NY
Hadley,
Thank you for being such an amazing example to other young women out there…you are intelligent, funny, true to yourself, and down to earth and you should be proud of the person you are! I think you made the right decision to focus on yourself first. The romance stuff will come at the right time when you are ready for it. I think you and Russ have an undeniable connection and chemistry but maybe it just wasn’t the right time for you? Good luck to you-I have no doubt that you and Kellie will have a successful partnership!
Where did you take Shea when you went consignment shopping?
Hadley -I really think you should give Russ a chance. People DO change, and he seemes like he really cares for you – and if you are giving it this much thought, then obviously you think there may be something deep down also. Shea was so against Russ because of his old ways, but look what happened to her? I’m not saying it’s her fault, I’m saying that you just NEVER KNOW.
Good luck, and I think you’re amazing.